” We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings have a human experience.”

-Pierre Teilhard De Chardin

There are moments on this journey where my thoughts scare me. Not because they are dark or dangerous but because they feel bigger that what the human mind is designed to hold

Sometimes I wonder if I am low-key crazy.

But then I read the words of other people who have walked through their own awakening. I listen to voices like Joseph Nguyen, who reminded me that I am not my thoughts. Because the more I learn, the more I understand.

I am not crazy.

I am cracking open.

🌙The Spiritual Being Trying to Fit into a Human Brain

I have heard the phrase ” You are a spiritual being having a human experience” my whole life. But hearing it recently hit different, it hit like truth finally landing in my chest.

Our spiritual self is limitless, expansive, ancient.

Our human self is conditioned, pressured, timed and often afraid.

These two parts don’t speak the same language.

My light form knows I came here with purpose.

But my physical form feels overwhelmed by timelines, expectations, and the noise of the world.

My spirit knows I am infinite.

My human minds is still trying to survive.

And somewhere in between, the thoughts start spiraling, and I think:

” Yo am I okay ?”

But the truth is, I am more than okay. I am remembering. And remembering feels good.

🌿The Thoughts That Hurt Are Not Truth * They are Conditioning Leaving

The thoughts that feel the loudest are the ones that tell me I am behind, or failing or not enough. Those aren’t the truth.

They are echoes.

Echoes of:

• societal timelines
• childhood programming
• perfection pressure
• survival instincts
• fear disguised as logic.

Awakening doesn’t happen when your life gets easier. It happens when you start questioning the thoughts that have been running you for years.

And that questioning can feel like unraveling. That unraveling is not madness. It is liberation.

🌓Reflection: The Two Poles Withing Us * Human and Divine

They are days when my thoughts swing so wildly that I stat questioning myself. Not in a fearful way, but in a what is happening inside me? Kind of way and as I sit with it, something hit me with full clarity.

Maybe we are all “bipolar” in a spiritual sense, not as a diagnosis but as a description of our dual nature.

We live with two poles inside us:

The Human Pole

• reactive
• emotional
• pressured
• conditioned
• afraid of being behind
• overwhelmed by expetations

The Spiritual Pole

• calm
• expansive
• eternal
• intutive
• anchored
• knowing

Every moment of our lives is spent moving between these poles, trying to create one coherent existence out of two completely different realities. No wonder it feels intense. No wonder it feels confusing. No wonder sometimes it feels like, “Yo am I okay? ” But the more I awaken I inner stand.

I am not breaking; I am bridging.

I am not losing myself; I am meeting the rest of myself.

Awakening isn’t about choosing one pole over the other. It’s about learning how to recognize which voice is telling the truth.

The human voice warns.

The spiritual voice remembers.

And when life feels overwhelming, when the thoughts feel too big, when I can only see the human side of me and I forget the light. I am learning to pause and ask. Which pole is talking right now?

Fear or truth?

Conditioning or clarity?

Human urgency or spiritual knowing

Because the truth is simple and sacred:

I am a light being encased in a physical body.

Both are me.

Both are valid.

Both are learning to walk together.

And awakening is nothing more than learning to listen more deeply to that part of me that has always been eternal.

🌻Serenity, Give Yourself a Chance

My mother’s word ring in my ear lately, I don’t even thing she realized how prophetic she was being .

” Give yourself a chance”

Give myself a chance to :

• grow
• heal
• learn
• try
• make mistakes
• start again
• blossom slowly

These are thoughts that feel too big for the human mind and are not signs of breaking. They are signs of rising.

If anything, the people who don’t question their lives, their patterns, or their conditioning. Those are the ones who never stop to ask, ” Is this really who I am?” Those are the ones sleepwalking.

Awakening looks messy. But sleeping looks perfect. I choose messy, I choose real. I choose awakening.

🌕I’m Not Crazy * I’m Crossing a Threshold

If I am honest, this feels like threshold season. A crossing from the identity I have worn my whole life into the self I was always meant to become.

And the thresholds are disorienting.

Thoughts swirl. Old fears rise. New truths shimmer. My soul speeds up and my body tries to keep up. But here is what I know deeply.

The more aligned I become, the more my spirit speaks louder than my fear. And the more my spirit speaks, the more my old thoughts start dissolving.

What I once mistook as “crazy” was actually the beginning of clarity.

✨Final Reflection * You are not Losing Yourself * You are Meeting Yourself

To anyone who reads this and feels the same way, like your thoughts are too loud, too strange, too deep or too much.

You are not losing yourself.

You are meeting yourself.

The spiritual you, the intuitive you. The you beneath all the noise. And if you ever need a reminder, hear my mother’s words.

Give yourself a chance.

🌿Remember This

Awakening isn’t about becoming someone new. It’s about remembering who you are before the world told you who to be.It is remembering the self you abandoned to survive.

📝Journal Prompt:

What part is you is awakening, unraveling or remembering right now?

Share your reflection in the comments. Your truth might be the light someone needs today.

🌻Serenity